Free Falling

“From whence then hast Thou that living water?” – John 4:11

This past week was a little more eventful than last. This weekend I had the opportunity to go bungee jumping. The only way I can describe it is this; you know when you have the dream that you are falling and then wake up right as you are about to smash into the ground? It’s like that. But, in a liberating and adrenaline rush kind of way. I got all suited up and rode in a mechanical cage 100 meters towards the sky. As I reached the top, they double and triple checked the harness around my feet. Then I proceeded to inch my way toward the ledge, which, apparently was not quick enough, and before I knew it I hear “ok, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!” and I was thrust off the ledge head first towards the ground. It was exhilarating. 

Going to school for athletic training, and after experiencing all of the injuries I have seen, this jump was against everything I have been taught and have practiced. Just like when I was attached to someone while sky diving, I needed someone to help me with that first step accomplish the insane task. Last week I talked about being recklessly abandoned, holding nothing back, and as I continue in this lesson with Him, I am learning that some of the things He is asking me to do, seem impossible. 

Cue God.

I think I look to God as my Sympathizer and Comforter, and sometimes even a guest to my own personal pity party, but do I look to Him as God the Almighty? Do I let Him work in the impossible or do I give up and say “it cannot be done”. There are times I may exhibit Christian attributes or have Christian experiences, but if I am not asking God to provide the impossible, there is no abandonment. He tells us “Let not your heart be troubled”; and there are days when I say “but Lord the well is deep, there is not comfort to be found”. God does not draw His power from deep within me, He brings it down from above. I limit Him so much when I compare His strength with my own. “The thing that taxes almightiness is the very thing which we as disciples of Jesus Christ out to believe He will do.” – Oswald Chambers. The well of my incompleteness is deep, but I desire to make the effort to look towards Him.  So today, I welcome the Lord to work out the impossible in my life, which could keep Him busy if I keep jumping off bridges.