Jesus loves the little children

“None of us liveth to himself.” Romans 14:7

God is good all the time. But last week I struggled with Him. I am sure most of you know the song, ‘Jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world, red and yellow, black and white, they are precious in His sight. Jesus loves the little children of the world.’ But I saw something last week that, for a moment, really made me doubt that simple truth. We went to visit the children’s hospital. I knew it would be tough seeing sick children. What I was not prepared for was the room full of sick children with no parents sitting with them or visiting them. Some of the children were there for months with TB and had parents who rarely visited. Some had been left there because there bills were too high. As we handed out beanie babies to the children, I just looked at them and felt hopeless for them. Does someone love them? We proceeded to the next wing and entered a room with several babies laying in beds. They looked perfectly fine, so I asked the nurse what was wrong with them and she replied, “Nothing, they were just abandoned here and have nowhere else to go.” So these babies lay in bed all day. I went to pick one up, who was probably a couple months old, and he just shook in fear because he was not used to being held. He did not have someone to love him and hold him.

 At first I was so upset at God for allowing this to happen to an innocent child. But as I sat there praying and journaling, I thought of the kids that I am responsible for. I have thirteen lives that I am supposed to provide for emotionally, spiritually, mentally, and physically. I was convicted because there are days that my selfish attitude does not allow me to provide well for them. So they suffer, like the children in the hospital, when I do not let the love of God shine through me because of my sin or I become lazy because I am tired. My goal each day needs to be to give 100% for the Lord, to be broken bread for Him. It is not good enough to say, "I am here helping the orphans so that is good enough". My life as a worker is the way I say “thank You” to God for his unspeakable salvation.